it's me

 My Best Friend 

actually, i am very love you. You may be dont know, if you close with the other boy, i am very envy.
I know, you feel i ignore you, i seldom great you, and i dont tell you some story of my life again. do you wanna know it ?? I am so shy to do something like we were in elementary. And, while i adjust with surrounding, suddenly, you have another best friend. I think, you should get it because i still shy to talk to you in this new school. But, you know, after i can adjust with this new surrounding, i still shy tell you some stories because your new best friend. I dont wanna my story hear someone, I wanna just you who hear my story. So, i dont have someone who can hear my privacy except Allah. And, i try to make myself happy with this sentense,
“belum lengkaplah imanmu bila kamu masih berkeluh kesah kepada sesamamu”
It is hard, but i still wanna be patient, may be and i’m sure, you also must be patient.And, thats reason why i am not tell you again about my story.
and, i think, our friendship is not more than “mak comblang”. So, i start thought, may be, after i was not have girl friend, may be i will not have story again for shared. thats make me more confused.
beside that, i seldom great you again now. yeah, beside i am shy, i think it is over. and may be in the other friend’s mind, it is not usual greating.
and, one more that you must know, if i am not think about love again. may be if i have problem with love, friend, friendship, feeling, or others, i very need you in beside me. but, now, i am thinking about life. so, i am looking for friend who can give me reality advice. i know you may be can give me it, but you always use your feeling, like me, so i look for some one who different from me that i can share infomation with her.
one more again, i am very envy with you if you are so close with others boy, because i think, you are mine. i love you my best friend,. sorry if i cant be your good friend,. i always ignore you, but it is my character., it is hard change it.,
love u, sorry